Vacant Chapter 10 Decision

When I fin ally look at the clock, I notice its been seven hours since I ran bug out on Emily and my feelings. As I look out in await of me, the gray asphalt blurring with yellow and white lines, I make the end to keep going. I dont want to be the one to ruin her.No matter how far I drive, I come to the same finish over and over again. I must have given Emily many sign of my feelings for her. It was never my intention. Im a stock boy at a grocery store. She needs someone to take care of herbuy her all the things shes never had. She doesnt need an orphaned schmuck with less money than honey oil sense.Usually, forty-eight hours doesnt seem like a safe and sound lot. However, its the longest Ive been out from Emily in the time Ive know her. Its hard for me to believe Ive only known her such a short time because shes my whole life. How can your whole life be consumed by one person you havent known your inbuilt life?Since I dont know the answer to that, I keep driving.Its Friday the 13th. I hadnt actually realized it until I stopped for gas, and the lady in apparent motion of me was writing a check. She asked what the date was. The attendant answered her in a gleeful, but macabre tone. Can one celebrate Friday the 13th? If today is the 13th though, that means Ive been sleeping in my car for six years.Six days without her beautiful eyes.Six days without hearing the slight lilt in her voice.Six days since she told me she loved me, and I left her like a thief in the night. Six days of thinking about kissing, base and holding Emily. Its the only thing Ive thought about.Suddenly, it hits me I know exactly what the raccoon from yesterday felt like as the wheels of the truck forrader of me rolled over him crushing him from the outside in.